Here is something I wrote when I was alone and bored last night/this morning
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When the world sleeps, and a deep sadness is what I feel, who do I have to share it with? It seems I can only sit here and cry, though it is such a small matter. It is early, but I feel no need to sleep. A friend is here, but he sleeps as well. So…the fact still remains. I am sad, but with no one to share it with. This is the time I cry myself to sleep, or sit awake. My sadness is only increased by the fact I have no one to share my tears with. No brother. No sister. No one I love. No one. Is this the time when I should forget about that, and say simply, “I am a child and need not worry about these things.�? I don’t know what to say. I am too young for love, so then who do I cry to? My friends who reside in my thoughts and my imagination brings to life? They are, sadly, unreal I should think, so it cannot help. I am hungry, but ignore it. I greatly dislike the feeling of being alone…at night is when the pain of loneliness gnaws at my heart. The song boulevard of broken dreams….seems it fits. I don’t write or type my feeling often, but now I feel I need to. I know not why, but I do. Vergil seems so willing to make me happy, but I wish to make him happy. Guess I can’t make everyone happy, but that could’ve been expected. Tell me, whoever would, when you are in the darkness can you help but be sad? It seems correct because when I’m alone in the darkness, I think of sad things. I shall get over it soon, though There is one wish at the moment. I wish for Vergil to see me soon, and be who he says he is. If he cannot, I prey that he is safe and feels no sadness. I just wish I had someone such as a brother to share my feelings with. They say that people who were born only children wish for siblings…It is true. But yet, people who do have sibling wish they didn’t. I do not understand, for it seems you are lonely without someone to share your feelings with, and cry with over sad times, and to laugh with in good times, right?