That could be a little scary.
Hehe, one of my friends was spending the night at my house once, and she started talking in her sleep. It was pretty funny! All of a sudden she pushed herself up and was like "Pentagon Seven..." and then fell back down. I wasn't sure if she was faking ('cause we did that a lot, lol) so I was whipering "What? Dude... Are you awake still?" And she never answered. So I told her the next morning She didn't remember doing it
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LOL.
"Pentagon Seven"? WTF?
I don't think I feel insane anymore.
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Oh no, you're quite normal with this company. I think.
Oooh! I get to tell about a freaky experience I had at acupuncture! Thought I'd relate it because someone might be inspired to go try it themselves, and that could only do good ah reckon.
Unless you're deathly afraid of needles. If so, don't go near there.
I've always been interested in alternative health therapies, and once when I had some Qi Gong massage done, a guy tapped a certain point on my chest repeatedly, and for some reason I had the urge to cry. I've known I've had some pent up anger/sadness in me for a while, and the fact that there might be a way to release it outside of your standard western therapy (cause let me tells ya, I've found most therapists to be quite useless for me) interested me greatly.
Since Qi Gong is a form of Traditional Chinese Medicine, I thought I might give Acupuncture a try, and see if any more success might be had. In the first diagnostic session with her, I got more out of the experience than I ever got in any session with a therapist. Then, in my first real session, she decided to do some clearing work on me. This involved sticking an acupuncture needle at the top of my head (ow, btw, that hurt) and one in each hand in the webbing between my thumbs and index finger, and one in the top of each foot. These points are supposed to help with pain relief and particularly in the foot point, with letting go. (they're also not supposed to hurt going in, so she kinda stuffed up there)
I'd been considering studying this myself, and she mentioned that she'd done her study with a bunch of loans for living expenses. I was pondering this, as she left me alone to concentrate on breathing and just relaxing for 20 minutes. I could feel the gentle pulsing and rippling of energy in my right leg and left hand, which felt quite nice.
So I'm sitting there, thinking about loans, when I close my eyes a little more tightly and wonder why they're suddenly very wet. I blink and wipe away tears that seem to be forming while I'm just sitting there, thinking about loans. Now, I know loans are sometimes painful things, but there was no reason my eyes should be crying, especially when the loan wasn't MINE. Next thing I know I have the deep urge to really cry. So I do, repeatedly, in between giggling because the water from my tears kept going into my EARS, which I couldn't stop because the freaking tissues were on another table across the room.
I cry/sob for the rest of the session, and I don't even know why. I mean, I know I've buried stuff for a long time, but no images, no memories came with the tears. I was just sad, and needed to cry.
Anyhoo. Anyone seen Office Space? When I finished up wth that session and wandered off to work again, I felt just like that guy. Goofy and relaxed. It was really an amazing thing. I think it's quite true that emotional imbalances can cause some terrible injuries to your body, that folks can bury stuff deep inside and it can turn into things like chronic pain, disease and cancer. The fact that my body just voluntarily let this stuff go, without my mind having to go back there and try to relive it to release it fascinates me.
So, highly recommended! ... unless you're deathly afraid of needles. Baaad idea in that case.
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I have a lot of pent up anger, basically because I'm afraid of letting it out. That probably sounds kinda dumb, but that's just the way I am. I don't want to talk about a lot of it on here cuz it's pretty damn personal stuff, but...just ughh. I also tend to be hateful of a lot of things, though if you met me, you wouldn't guess until I told you. Haha.
I think I'd rather stick to traditional therapy, if I did something like that. Do not like needles. I'd freak out and panic the entire time, LOL. "Where are you putting that? NO! GET IT AWAY...AWAYYY...AWAY!" I mean, god, I went really pale the last time I got a shot. And that was only months ago!
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I totally understand
There are other methods though - supposedly beating up pillows helps. But then, I find myself feeling stupid for doing so.
I don't hate pillows - it's hard to get really angry at them.
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Totalimmortal wrote:
LOL.
"Pentagon Seven"? WTF?
I don't think I feel insane anymore.
Yeah, no matter what, while you may feel that others are better off/more sane/just plain better than you, remember there's always somebody worse, teehee.
That's wild Monty! Holy crap! Sometimes I have the urge to cry for no reason. I'll be in the shower or in bed and I'll just feel really, really sad. I can never cry during those times though I usually don't try because if I don't have a reason, then wtf? But I did once and I couldn't. Like when there's a gob of something stuck in your throat and you have trouble swallowing.
I'm like you Totalimmortal- afraid to let out my anger. Usually it subsides, but some of it always remains. Something just feels... I don't know... kinda odd about just letting it out in an aggressive fashion. I don't understand why. I tend to swing between fairly hateful of most things to be really mellow and understanding of just about anything
I'd kinda like to try acupuncture. Seems interesting... and I guess seems how needles don't bother me there wouldn't be a whole of harm in at least trying.
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euck...yeah, I'm pretty afraid of needles, as I've mentioned before...the whole thing with the blood test where they kept sticking me in the arm and couldn't get anything to come out ....
I do tend to bottle up my anger though.... which may not entirely be a bad thing, since I take a lot of crap sometimes and I do have a temper, I've just learned not to show it.
Although if I have a bad week or something, I start venting....
I was having a bad week at school a few months back and I started putting a little too much anger into my everyday actions....I started breaking things unintentionally....not like smashing things, just breaking them while I was using them....
Like our front door....I ripped the inside handle off.
And I broke a ceiling tile in half when I kicked a punching bag a little bit too hard at karate
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Remind me not to get in a scuffle with you dude! I usually start shouting at people without meaning to. Sometimes I'll lash out physically, like one time I threw a spork at someone
And then this other time I knocked a kid's hat off. Gawd, I wanted to hit him so bad. He was being really stupid and stubborn
But I contained myself enough to not do any real damage, just startle people around me...
I feel sorta bad afterwards though... not for the person who irked me, but for those around me who didn't need to see it
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My cousin once hit my sister, so I beat him up.
I'm not too proud of it, but I was having a horrible week and that just made me explode. *sigh*
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Sometimes it happens. There's only a few people in my life that I care about enough to get physical with someone else.
One of my friends, he's been here for the school year but no one likes him I like him though and we're fairly similar. He spends a lot of time on forums too, lol. He got beat up and I wish I knew who did so I could have at them. Not only do I care about him, but I see no reason to pick on him. Everything people give him crap about I do too. Only difference (besides our genders) is that I've been here my whole life and he's like the "new kid". My mom kept asking me if I knew who beat him up (our parents work at the hospital together) and I finally had to say "I'm wearing my steel toed boots today. They'd be lucky if an x-ray was the only thing they needed." It just p****ed me so bad because everyone gives him a rough and he's a great guy. He's totally brilliant and he's very kind hearted. I hope next school year goes better for him.
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That was the only time I've ever beaten anyone up, though.
I mean, I've thrown fists but it usually ended after that.
But, as I had said before, I had a rough week and I had already had a couple of anxiety attacks.
And well...you just don't fxxk with my mother or sister, you don't.
Also, my cousin was a beast anyway. Ugh. They spoiled him rotten. He just disgusted me to no end.
But what disturbed me about the fact that I started on him was that it seemed more like I was letting my anger at the world out on him, and not just hurting him because he hurt my sister. Hmmm...maybe I should find a decent way to relieve stress? ehhh...
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That would be a little scary. I haven't gotten in a fist fight with anyone yet. I've threatened to and waited for the other guy, but it ended up as a stand-off and no one did anything, which was probably for the better because I'm really not sure how I would fare in a fight....
Archery works pretty well for me. I haven't been at it much, but I enjoy it. Another I do to relieve stress is just kick a ball at the back of my house (trying not to hit the gas meter ) Or I just relax, like listening to music and just enjoying life. Chilling outside and stuff like that
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Yeah.
I've never been in a real fight before though.
It's like, someone really pisses me off, I turn around and do something about it, and they look shocked since I'm usually so timid and it ends. And I do nothing else. And I haven't even done that very often at all. It only happens when I've been bottling up my feelings for a long, long time and I finally can't take much anymore.
if I got into a true fight, I don't know how I'd do.
I guess you could call the thing with my cousin a true fight, but he didn't hit back or anything so I dunno...
I like to listen to my music and attempt to relax when I'm angry, but I find the best means of venting are basically through writing, which I've taken up as a habit of mine. And as I said earlier...my English teacher sees potential in me and gives my writing A's all the time, so I must not be bad at it. An example of my writing is in that 'the origins of our characters' thread in the "Live" Games section, which contains the origin of my roleplay character that I use basically. I wrote it pretty quickly though so there are a few errors...especially in the description department. Repeated myself a bit.
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That's a good way to vent. I've wrote out my feelings occasionally and it really helped me to calm down. Sometimes I draw, and my work seems to come out better when I'm sad
Quick writing's usually like that. It's always better once you've had a bit to work it all out. That's so cool that your English teacher sees so much in you though! It means a lot to me when one of my teachers likes my work
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Yes, same.
It'd be interesting to get a novel published or somethin'.
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That would be neat! If you ever write a book you should so try to get it published! There was an 11-year-old kid or so back in the '80s I think that published a Star Wars quiz book deal. Some of the questions were freaking hard
I bet if that kid can publish a book, you could so do it
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yeah.
Maybe it would end up a best-seller and I'd be richer than JK Rowling.
HAHAHAHAAAaaaa....
one can dream.
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That would be awesome! Dreams are always good, hehe.
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Howlitzer wrote:
euck...yeah, I'm pretty afraid of needles, as I've mentioned before...the whole thing with the blood test where they kept sticking me in the arm and couldn't get anything to come out
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So you're afraid of needles? *Writes that down* Hehehee, I just happen to know a few nurses.
Howlitzer wrote:
I kicked a punching bag a little bit too hard at karate
You do karate??? *Goes to find a martial arts teacher FAST*
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hehe.
Yeah.
I'm writing one story in which one of the characters is an exact copy of this woman I know. She's a bit of a...*ahem* I don't know if I can say this on here, but she's a whore. She disgusts me, and she eventually gets killed in my story. MWAHAHAHA.
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I don't really care for doctor's needles, but CLEAN tattoo needles, I like. I have two tats of my own, one on each shoulder.
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what are your tatoos of, zage?
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I wanna know what your tats are too Zage!
I don't think I've written someone into a story yet. But my English teacher was irritating me last year (I hated her, but now she's alright, lol) so I drew a picture of me as a giant wolf and her underneath about to get what she had coming. She yelled at me all the time, lol.
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How could anyone can see your tatoos under all of that thick fur of yours, Zage?
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I don't ever wanna get a tattoo because what if like, a few years after I got it, I look at it and think, "omfg I don't want this thing anymore" and I'm stuck with it?
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